its official*

I am officially the last one in my family to get married! I am so sad about this. I am happy for my sister but my mom called me today and told me they are getting married on Sept. 19th. Can I just say my heart fell into my stomach? I've known for awhile that they were going to get married soon but I didn't think THIS SOON! I just always thought I'd be married by now, be on my 6th kid. All my friends that are married and have gotten divorced say that marriage is over rated... Is it really over rated? I guess it depends on whether or not you settle for less then what you want. When I think back on all the LOSERS I've dated. I'm so glad I didn't marry any of them! Ha ha but still its sad that I'm the last one in my family to get married. What should I do? Where should I go to meet the man of my dreams? Where should I go to look for a decent guy? I go out a lot to the bars and clubs but I don't ever go to look for guys. I go to dance and have fun. If I just so happen meet a cute guy that's fine. But SERIOUSLY I'm obviously looking in the wrong places for a guy to marry! Is 25 too young to get married? I just had this conversation with my friend Necia on Monday. That I'm fine not being married right now, I get to go out and have fun, and I'm kinda glad I'm not tied down to kids. But at the same time I DO want to be married!!! But really, I must be going to the wrong places to find a guy. Now I feel that I'm a pretty hot looking chic and I don't need to go to E harmony to find a date. But man... If I'm 30 by the time I get married that might be an option I'm willing to take!

heading down to wally world*

Yesterday I was so sick at work cuz I'm a dumb ass and took some iron pills that have been expired for 4 years! I've been taking them since Tuesday and had been so sick, throwing up, sick stomach. I finally decided to look at the date on the pills. I almost shit my pants! 4 years expired! No wonder I was sick! Left work early, paid my ticket from last week, picked my bff karissa up and went to wally world. We were getting groceries. And these dirt bag construction workers. NO OFFENSE to any of you construction workers out there. But these guys were such dirt bags! KArissa and I see probably the cutest and only single girls in our town, and these douche's freakin are talkin real loud sayin to each other, screw your wife, go talk to those girls. EW! They followed us from the frozen food section all the way to the toilet paper! Stupid douche bags. We're not 12, we don't go to wally world to "look for guys" and if your married stay away from these 2 bitches. Needless to say after that expirence at wally, we headed straight to the liquor store to get some yummy peach vodka, and a bottle of wine. Only drank the vodka, because mixing wine with anything makes for a huge disaster! I'm really begining to think there are no good guys out there anymore! Its just Terrible. Oh well tonight should be fun. Going out to my favorite martini bar EVER in the great SLC! So wish me luck that no married guys hit on us hotties tonight. That's just LAME!

myspace

It just amazes me how many people have found me on myspace. I was checking my myspace last night, and I got a message from my long lost friend that fell off the face of the earth for about 10 years. His name is Tate. And he lived with my family for a few years growing up. He got into some bad stuff, and decided to move to another state to get on the right track. Well in his message he was like I haven't seen you in years! What have you been up to? I've just been working, fishing, trying to stay busy so I don't get off track again. and all this stuff. I was freakin out! Cuz he really is awesome. I've known him my whole life and he's like a part of my family. So I'm so glad he's doing so well! And he is so freakin hot now!!! Some girl is very lucky to date him! Ha ha ha but I called my mama and told her he found me on myspace, and she was like that's crazy! I was just thinking about him yesterday! Let me know how he's doing and tell him I love him.. That seriously made my week since the past week has been REAL shitty!

*AVERY is finally here!!

I am so proud to announce that Becca and brett's baby girl avery has finally arrived to her loving parents arms! Becca sent me a pic of avery tonight. And oh my goodness! She is so precious! So beautiful! I was over come with such emotion when I saw that picture! I started crying! Because Brett and Becca have waited a long time to start a family, and now their dreams have come true! I can not express my love for Becca as I've gotten to know her over the past year. And being able to work with her, and see her and Brett embark on this wonderful journey has been the most amazing expirence I've ever had. It might be because I'm adopted and have got to see first hand from the adopting parents point of view. It is truly such a blessing for the parents adopting, and for the child. Its just amazing! I can't stop saying that! And how happy I am for these two amazing people!!!!!!!!!

fabulous news!!!......for Brett and Becca

I'm so excited and proud to annouce my sales asst. Becca is going to be a mommy today!! She found out this morning the girl that's having the baby she's adopting is going into labor!!! Her and her husband have waited a very long time for this, and I'm so excited that she's able to have her dream of becoming a mom. I can't possibly think of anyone that deserves this more then her. She is such an amazing person! Its very bittersweet for my because Becca is such a great asst. Manager, and I'm so,so, so sad that she won't be working for me anymore! But ya know I'm still very happy for her! So CONGRATULATIONS BRETT AND BECCA!!!! You guys will make amazing parents!!!!!!!!! You better bring your sweet baby girl into the store to visit us!!!

*LAME*

So I got pulled over today by the damn highway patrol. Its my own fault, I didn't get my car registered when I was supposed to. But still it makes for a shitty day!!!!

*COUNTY FAIRS*

OH I just love the end of summer begining of fall! When its time for all the county fairs, and of course the state fair! I went last night to the county fair with my friends, it was a lot of fun. But my allergies were just terrible! We went to look at the animals and I could only walk through and see the pigs, because I was sneezing SO BAD! One thing I've never expirenced before while getting a wrist band for a beer, is waiting in line for 45 mins to get the wrist band, then having the ladies check my id for. Any dui's I might have or have gotten in the past. They weren't doing this only with me. It was everyone that wanted a wrist band. It was really weird. Might I add I've never had a dui or even have a criminal back ground. I have a pic of the wrist band, but it full on says my whole name has my birth date. On it and a portion of my drivers license on it. When did they start doing this at any public function? I think its good and bad. Bad being the part where we wait in line for 45 mins just for a wrist band! But after we got those we were good to walk around and have fun. I felt REAL old there since everyone was either in high school or barely 18 and had 20 kids each! But one good thing is one of the sheriffs directing traffic was a total HOTTIE, so I made my friend drive back and I asked him if he was single or married, and he said he was in a relationship. And I said. Damn. I wanted your number. Oh well! I give props to him for actually saying he was in a realationship and not being at all like the other guys I've met in my life! So yeah... I LOVE-LOVE-LOVE county fairs can't even wait for the next one in Sept!

**dating disaster**

Friday night a bunch of us went out to the martini bar, and to the sky bar. Well I invited this guy I met at the auditions he seemed cool. I invited him cuz we all were talking about going at the auditions. So I texted him on Friday and was like so are you going down with us or meeting us down there? And he said I'll ride down with you guys. Me being kinda the brat I am, say oh well then can you drive? Ha ha ha. He was nice and said that was no problem. So I'm freakin out because my friend Bethany was supposed to drive with me to his house, well she was running late, so I had to ride with him BY MYSELF!!! Scary I know! I get to his house and he invites me in to have a shot of vodka before we go. I'm like suRe why not!? We're celebrating my birthday, I want to get my drink on.. We leave his house and have great conversation on the way down. Get to the martini bar all my friends are there and we find out HE'S MARRIED! So I turn to him and say, where's your wife at? He's like oh we're "seperated" just living together with our kids. And trying to work it out. Aubree replied obviously your not trying to work it out if your not wearing your wedding ring and your wife isn't here with us. I'm freakin out at this point because in no way shape or form did I intend on anything to happen with this dude. I was just being nice and invited him along. Well he bought all my drinks I felt bad, but. We were all there for me so why should I pay for my drinks! Ha ha anyways he drinks too much and I end up having to drive home cuz I didn't drink nearly as much as I wanted to. Well we're in his car and he turns to me and says" tania your unlike any girl I've ever met. Your not like any Mexican I've ever met.. Oh you don't EVER call me a Mexican. Cuz I'm not. I reply to him. "first off I'm not Mexican, I was born in el Salvador completly different country. 2nd of all probably cuz I'm adopted and my parents are white so pretty much I'm a white girl trapped in a brown girls body! Ha ha ha I was just trying to make light of the situation since he just pissed me off for the 100th time that night. so pretty much I guess I have written acrossed my forehead "homewrecker" so that all the loser DOUCHE-BAG married guys that are having "marriage problems" come find me! This is the 2nd time this has happened! Its just terrible. It really is. And it all started because I was trying to be nice.

a day of shooting

aubree pulling a "bad ass angelina jolie"!

oh boy! i should have worn my contacts! ha ha ha i had no idea how terrible i look! anyhow kevin, aubree, her step dad, and kids and me, all went shooting today! so much fun! i forget how much fun it is! Aubree told me that when she shoots kevin's hand gun, she feels as bad ass as angelina jolie! ha ha ha i had to just laugh about that! this was such a fun day!

finally!! pics from american idol!

These pics are from the auditions! aubree and i are in the first one, the 2nd one is where we had to audition. We had to GO DOWN TO THE FLOOR OF THE ESA, AND STAND IN A LINE OF 4 PEOPLE, AND SING IN FRONT OF EVERYONE! good thing they didnt have a microphone! the next one is of everyone is a huge group of people, standing on the stairs, ET and EXTRA were filming all of us! it seriously was the most fun and exciting thing EVER!!!!! so yeah i totally recomend this to anyone that can sing, to please do this! its such a fun process! so yeah... here at the pics from the auditions!