Guess we should play Catch up again.

SO......here it goes. MY life lately has been anything but crazy. Not since living om my own. I still go to as man concerts as I can possibly go to. I am an Addict.. I may need to go to CA. CONCERTS ANNONYMOUS. LOL but I guess its a good thing to be addicted to. I have recently removed some people out of my life that are no bueno for me and it has been such a RELIEF! Tyler just got kicked to the curb, because he is a loser that thinks he has been saved by GOD for all his transgressions. Which maybe he has I just think he is a loser and a liar and have no need for him in my life EVER again. And then just some other random nobody's. I wonder why its so hard to find Good honest people out there? It just seems to me like there are so many dis honest people out there and it makes me sad. But such is life I guess. I have recently come into contact with this guy I went to high school with. He seems ok. I'm sure you all have noticed a Brady that as my step sister Julie says "DROOLS all over me" and as my friend Aubree says he "L-O-V-E loves you Tan" lol he is nice and I talk to him everyday of my life since Nov 14th. There is just one problem with him. Wheb we make plans to hang out something always comes up. He always tells me he likes my attitude and that he loves that I'm so honest. Also that I don't judge him for his past. Believe me he has a small past. But coming from Small town usa where everyone except me and a few others were junkies in high school. He was, has been clean for 5 years and has totally tured his life around for the better. I am proud of him because for one, He is not dead. And for 2, he has made something of himself. Which is fantastic. But like I said we talk everyday. All day long, just about anything and everything. I am so glad that he is able to talk to me about anything. But at the same time, its like WTF dude. Let's habg out, be friends instead of the guy and the girl that only talk on the phone or text. I have invited him to come hang out and he always has something come up!!! Makes me think something is not right. Maybe I intimidate him? I get that a lot that I am very intimidating because I know what I want, and won't accept anything less. He knows that and maybe he thinks he can't be friends with me. Who the hell knows. But anyways. There really isn't much going on in my life at the moment. Other then trying to get B to hang out. I guess I just don't understand how people can be so fake. I'm sure you guys have notice most of my posts on facebook. I truly am such a nice, caring person. But you do me wrong and I am done. Its that fire cracker in me! Lol I just have zero tolerence for people that lie. Be honest people. Because I am. Maybe a little too honest, but atleast I'm not fake and don't treat people like a piece of shit unless they have done me wrong. Enough about that!!!! I'm SO EXCITED for Christmas. MY whole family is going to the Grand Canyon to ride the polar express around the canyon. It should be a good time!!! I just love my family so much and wouldn't know who I'd be if it weren't foor them. I've come a long way this past year. I'm not the partyer I used to be. Which is good because that got old real fast! Although I still enjoy a nive glass of red wine or a beer once in a while. But yeah what a random post!!!!! That's about all that is going on in my life! Out with the bad news people in with the great new honest people. Peace until next time

*I'M ALIVE, and WELL*

Alright, I realize its been 3 months since my last post. I'm sorry about that. My life has been so much fun lately, and I know I say this a lot but I've really come to realize how blessed I am for the family I have. My mom and dad, step dad, and step mom are the best ever! Its taken me a long time to truly appreciate and love my step dad. And I just want to say AGAIN that I am so blessed to have not only one but 2 great dads in my life. And my mom, bless her heart for putting up with my VERY opinoinated self! Just had to say that real QUICK. After the Kenny concert I went to TOBY KEITH, KEITH URBAN, and the love of my life JASON ALDEAN* toby and keith were good concerts as always they always put on such a great show! But I swear the best concert I ever went to was Jason Aldean in VEGAS at the MANDALAY BAY hotel. It was out in the beach area where the pools are. And the stage was set up right in the water so we were able to walk up to the stage and dance, and sin in the water! I swear Jason knew how much I LO VE him! He just kept looking right at me and smiling, because as you all know I'm his number 1 FAN!!!! He just is such a great preformer. I suggest all of you guys go and see him and let me know what you think. That was not only the best trip to vegas I went with my best friend karissa, our friend yvonne, and my boss nancy and her hubby. We all just had such a blast! Also I have dated a few guys in the past 3 months... None of which I am dating now. Such is life I guess. I honestly feel that every guy out there has some sort of addiction! Wehther it be cigarettes, weed, alcohol, whatever it may be. I'm to a point in my life where I want NONE of that, except for the couple of adult beverages once in while. There is no harm in that. So as of yet I have not found a guy worth my time for more then a month. I'm at a place in my life where I feel content, and if I should meet that wonderful guy that's great if not that's great too! So no more deadlines on when I should be married, and have kids! And let me tell you its such a relief to finally feel that way!!!!! And to finally be in such a great place with myself. So that's how my 3 months have been. I'm very blessed to have such an amazing FAMILY, and to have a handful of friends that are actually good friends! I will promise to update more often then every 3 months. And later today I will post pics from Toby, Keith, and my boyfriend JASON =) have a great day!

LADY ANTEBELLUM, MIRANDA LAMBERT, AND KENNY CHESNEY CONCERT WITH TYCEE!

THIS PIC IS A REALLY GOOD ONE OF KENNY

I LIKED THIS ONE TOO..

SUN CITY CARNIVAL BABY!

TYCEE WITH HER LADY A SHIRT! AND PIC

HILLARY SCOTT OF LADY A

TYCEE AFTER WE GOT HER SHIRT

ME WITH TY'S PIC

THE STAGE

ME CHILLIN WITH TY

TYCEE CHILLIN IN THE HOT WEATHER BEFORE THE CONCERT!





OK SO THIS CONCERT WAS SO AWESOME!!!!!!!!!! I CAN'T SAY THAT ENOUGH! TYCEE WAS SO EXCITED TO SEE LADY ANTEBELLUM, AND MIRANDA LAMBERT. SHE DIDN'T REALLY CARE A LOT FOR KENNY CHESNEY, BUT IT WAS REALLY NEAT. AFTER MIRANDA LAMBERT PREFORMED WE WENT AND STOOD IN LINE TO MEET LADY ANTEBELLUM, WELL TYCEE WAS SO EXCITED TO MEET THEM AND ESPECIALLY HILLARY ONE OF THE SINGERS. WHEN WE GOT UP TO THE TABLE DAVE THE GUITAR PLAYER WAS LIKE ' HELLO SWEETIE, HOW ARE YOU? AND TYCEE IS LIKE FINE. THEN WE GET TO HILLARY AND I SAY HILLARY TYCEE IS YOUR NUMBER ONE FAN! SHE JUST LOVES YOU WITH HER WHOLE HEART! AND HILLARY HADN'T SAW TYCEE AT THIS POINT WHILE I WAS TALKIN TO HER AND HILLARY LOOKED DOWN AT TYCEE AND WAS ALL" OH MY! YOU ARE JUST THE MOST BEAUTIFUL LITTLE GIRL I HAVE EVER SEEN IN MY WHOLE LIFE!" YOU ARE SOOOOO BEAUTIFUL! WHAT IS YOUR NAME? AND TYCEE GOES, " TYCEE" AND HILLARY IS ALL I LOVE YOUR NAME! YOU ARE JUST SO BEAUTIFUL! AND THEN WHAT WAS REALLY COOL IS CHARLES KELLEY THE OTHER SINGER IN THE GROUP REACHES CLEAR ACROSS THE TABLE TO SHAKE TYCEE'S HAND AND IS ALL " YES I DO BELIEVE YOU ARE THE MOST BEAUTIFUL LITTLE GIRL I'VE EVER SEEN! DID YOU ENJOY THE SHOW!? AND TYCEE IS LIKE " OH YES" IT WAS JUST SO NEAT TO BE ABLE TO TAKE TYCEE TO SEE HER FAVORITE BAND! WHILE WE WERE STANDING IN LINE THE GIRL BEHIND US KEPT SAYING HOW CUTE TYCEE WAS BECAUSE SHE WAS SO EXCITED TO MEET LADY ANTEBELLUM. AND SEEING TYCEE'S REACTION WHEN DAVE, HILLARY, AND CHARLES WERE TALKING TO HER WAS PRICELESS! I STARTED TO CRY, BECAUSE IT REMINDED ME WHEN MY DAD TOOK ME TO SEE TANYA TUCKER IN CONCERT AT THE STATE FAIR WHEN I WAS TYCEE'S AGE. I REMEBER THINKING THAT WAS THE COOLEST THING EVER. AND TO BE THERE AND ACTUALLY SEE FIRST HAND HOW TYCEE REACTED WAS SO COOL!!!!!! ! SHE WAS IN AWE OF MEETING HILLARY SCOTT! I HAVE TO SAY I MET LADY ANTEBELLUM 3 TIMES LAST SUMMER AND THEY ARE THE NICEST MOST DOWN TO EARTH PEOPLE I'VE EVER MET! THAT HAVE BEEN FAMOUS ANYWAYS! IT WAS THE BEST NIGHT JUST BEING ABLE TO HAVE TYCEE MEET THEM! SOOOO COOL! KENNY CHESNEY WAS GOOD AS ALWAYS. BUT THE HIGHLIGHT WAS TYCEE GETTING TO MEET HER IDOL! SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO AWESOME!

*the KING OF COUNTRY MUSIC*

Oh man... Today I have been waiting for, all summer long! And since about February! I am so excited and so grateful I get to see George strait AGAIN! And in this great state of UTAH! I first saw george strait at the MGM grand about 4 years ago. Troye and I met in las Vegas and such the best time EVER. I remember it like it was yesterday. Taylor swift opened for him, and this was when she was first starting out and was good. Now I can't stand her! But man I just have always loved George and will for the rest of my life. I'm sad because Troye isn't going with me today, but don't worry sis, I'll take tons of pics for ya! But soon to come pics of this AMAZING concert!!!!!

*PAIGE MARINA*

THIS LITTLE CUTIE, I FELL IN LOVE WITH WHEN SHE BECAME A PART OF OUR FAMILY ABOUT 5? YEARS AGO. SHE IS THE BEST BIG SISTER TO TYCEE AND TRIPP, AND IS ALWAYS LOOKING OUT FOR THOSE 2! SHE IS REALLY JUST A CHILL RELAXED GO WITH THE FLOW KIND OF KID! I HAD WALKED INTO MY MOM'S HOUSE THE OTHER DAY AND TYCEE AND PAIGE WERE PLAYING, THE SECOND THEY SEE ME, PAIGE IS LIKE TAN WHY HAVEN'T YOU EVER BLOGGED ABOUT ME? TYCEE SAYS THE SAME THING! I'M ALL WHOA THERE TY I HAVE BLOGGED PLENTY ABOUT YOU!ITS ALMOST LIKE YOUR MY KID! I TOLD PAIGE I WAS SORRY THAT I HAVE NEVER BLOGGED ABOUT HER. I DON'T KNOW WHY I HAVE NEVER, BUT TODAY IS THE DAY!!! SHE IS SUCH A DELIGHT TO HAVE AROUND! I JUST LOVE HER TO PIECES! I ALSO HAD THE BEST TIME EVER IN MOAB WITH HER. SHE RODE IN THE FRONT SEAT OF MY CAR THE WHOLE WAY DOWN TO MOAB, AND WE WERE JUST SINGING AT THE TOP OF OUR LUNGS.. (I SHOULD SAY I WAS) PAIGE SORT OF LOOKED AT ME LIKE I WAS REALLY MOST DEF HER CRAZY AUNT! BUT THAT'S OK! WE HAD FUN. SHE IS JUST SUCH A SWEET HEART. SO I THOUGHT I'D POST REALLY QUICK ABOUT HER!

REAL QUICK*

I just wanted to say how I am so blessed to have the most best friends a girl could ever have! Necia, aubree, kirstyn, and karissa! You guys are the best! I was watching a show to night called army wives I just love this show! And the girls reminded me of all of us. You girls have been there for me no matter what and I am so grateful to you all! Kirst and Necia I've been friends with you coming on 10 years, I can't imagine my life with out you two. Through your guys marriages kids having families, we stay in touch no matter what and I just love you guys with my whole heart to pieces! I thank all 4 of you for being my friends through the good and the bad times! I just felt the need to share with everyone how amazing these 4 people are to me!

*DELICATE ARCH*

We all went and hiked to delicate arch on monday, our last day in moab. it was such a blast! I had no idea Aage had never EVER hiked up to the arch! so it was really neat to be able to be there for his first time! also christie and julie have been calling each other every morning for the past 2 months and have been going to the gym! Christie had made it a goal that when we all hiked up there she was going to hike ALL THE WAY to the arch. I am so proud of her for setting such a goal, and for going to the gym everyday ! when i won't get up my lazy ass in the morning and go myself! this was a very cool expierence! not only was it aage's first time being up there, christie had this goal, and Arian was with me! she had never been either. The funny thing is, Aage kept up with all the kids the WHOLE time and got to the arch 30 mins before the rest of us! i was a little worried he'd have a heart attack, but he didn't and he did a great job! I can't say this enough i AM SO PROUD OF YOU CHRISTIE! WAY TO GO SISTAH! ok here are some pics of all of us at the arch! enjoy! (all of these are from my phone, remember i thought my camera was broke)

*hells revenge*

MY WHOLE FAMILY WENT TO MOAB THIS PAST WEEKEND. JUST FOR A LITTLE REUNION, TO GET EVERYONE TOGETHER SINCE WE HAVEN'T BEEN TOGETHER SINCE CHRISTMAS. OH MY HELL.... CAN I SAY THIS WAS SO MUCH FUN! I NEVER THOUGHT IN A MILLION YEARS COULD WE ALL HAVE AS GREAT OF FUN AS WE DID AT CHRISTMAS SNOWMOBILING! BUT BOY WAS I WRONG!!!! MY SISTER JULIE HAD BEEN PLANNING THIS SINCE MARCH, GOT EVERYONE TO MEET UP FACEBOOKED US ALL ABOUT ONCE A WEEK TO LET US KNOW WHAT WE WE WERE DOING, GAVE US ALL FOOD ASSIGNMENTS FOR DIFFERENT DAYS, AND GAVE US A LIST OF ACTIVITIES WE WERE TO BE DOING WHILE IN MOAB. WELL THE FIRST NIGHT WE GOT TO MOAB, WENT TO DINNER AT PASTA JAY'S. WHICH WAS SO YUMMY! AAGE PAID FOR THAT. HE IS SO DEAR TO MY HEART! THEN WE ALL JUST WENT TO THE CAMPGROUND AND HUNG OUT TALKED TILL ALL HOURS AT NIGHT. WOKE UP SATURDAY MORNING WENT TO BREAKFAST AT THE MOAB DINER.. YUM* AND BRIAN MY BROTHER TOOK US ALL ROCK CRAWLING. WELL I HAD NO IDEA WHAT THIS WAS. I HAD HEARD ABOUT IT FROM HIM BUT NEVER REALLY PAID THAT MUCH ATTENTION I GUESS. BUT WE GET TO THE OPENING OF THE TRAIL, AND EVERYONE SAYS OK TANNI, YOU AND JULIE NEED TO TAKE YOUR CARS, THERE ISN'T ENOUGH ROOM FOR EVERYONE TO RIDE IN BRIANS, SO I'M OK WITH THAT I HAVE 4 WHEEL DRIVE. I'M THINK THIS IS GOING TO BE LIKE GOING OVER WEST MOUNTAIN WITH MY POPS WHEN I WAS YOUNGER.. OH MAN.. I WAS SO WRONG! WE HAVE TO DRIVE ON THIS "FIN" IS WHAT THEY CALL IT, ITS BASICALLY THIS NARROW ROAD THAT IS BUMPY AND SCARY AS ALL HELL! SO I PRETTY MUCH SHIT MY PANTS AND SAY THERE IS NO WAY I CAN DRIVE UP THAT! SO I ASKED BECCA MY SISTER IN LAW IF SHE WOULD DRIVE BECAUSE SHE HAS BEEN DOING THIS FOR 10 YEARS! AND KNOWS WHAT SHE IS DOING! WELL SHE GETS UP THERE, I'M RIDING WITH BRIAN IN HIS BAD ASS ROCK CRAWLER. JULES AND JAY ARE IN THEIR SUPER NICE TOYOTA TACOMA AND WE GET UP THE FIN, AND THERE IS THIS SUPER BIG HUGE HILL WE HAVE TO GO UP! I'M FREAKING OUT, JULIE IS, AND JAY IS AS WELL! THIS HILL IS MORE LIKE A MOUNTAIN. WELL I MAKE IT UP WITH BRIAN, BECCA FOLLOWS US, AAGE IS ON THE FOUR WHEELER, PORTER MY 10 YEAR OLD NEPHEW IS ON HIS MOTORCYLE, AND JULES IN THE TRUCK WITH JAY, AND THE BOYS JAYDEN AND JARON, ALONG WITH Y 17 YEAR OLD NIECE MAREN. THEY MAKE IT UP THE MOUNTAIN JUST FINE! JAY IS SHITTING HER PANTS IN THE MEAN WHILE. SHE ISN'T QUITE USED TO MY FAMILY YET. AND THE CRAZY STUFF WE DO ON FAMILY VACATIONS! BUT SHE WAS A GOOD SPORT ABOUT TAKIN HER NICE TRUCK UP THERE, BY THEN END OF THE 6 MILE CLIMB WE COME TO THIS REALLY ROCKY ROAD, MY CAR COULDN' TMAKE IT SO BRIAN AND JOSH HAD TO BASICALLY BUILD A ROAD OUT OF ROCKS TO GET MY RODEO UP THE HILL. BY THE TIME THAT WAS DONE I WAS HAVING A PANIC ATTACK, FROM ALL THE BOTTOMING OUT AND ALL THE NOISE FROM THE ROCKS BREAKING UNDERNEATH US, THAT I JUMP OUT OF MY CAR YELL AT JAY, AND SAY" HEY JAY! DO YOU HAVE THAT RUM IN THE BACK OF YOUR TRUCK"?!!! AND SHE'S ALL "YES MAAM I DO!" I TELL JAY I HAVE GOT TO HAVE A SHOT! I'VE HAD IT! I THINK MY CAR IS RUINED! THIS IS MY ONLY LIVLY HOOD, THIS IS MY CAR, I DON'T USE IT TO BEAT AROUND AND THROW TO SHIT, THIS IS MY CAR! MY ONE AND ONLY CAR! SO I TAKE 2 SHOTS OF RUM, JAY ALSO DOES BECAUSE SHE FEELS THE SAME, AND MAN I SWEAR I COULD'VE DRANK THAT WHOLE BOTTLE OF CAPTAIN MORGAN! I WAS SO STRESSED OUT ABOUT MY CAR!!!! BUT ALL IN ALL WE HAD A GREAT TIME! STRESSFUL AT TIMES, BUT SO MUCH FUN!!!!! BRIAN IS AMAZING FOR HELPING US ALL THROUGH THAT TRECHEROUS CLIMB, AND BECCA YOU WILL ALWAYS BE MY HERO FOR GETTING TRIPP, TYCEE AND PAIGE, AND ARIAN DOWN THAT MOUNTAIN SAFE! YOU KICK SOME MAJOR BUTT! JULIE YOU WERE AMAZING TOO! DRIVING THAT TRUCK, AND HAVING TO DEAL WITH THE BUMPER BEING ALL SCRATCHED UP, AND JAY.... EVEN THOUGH JAY WAS A BIT STRESSED, I REALLY THINK SHE ENJOYED IT A LOT! =) BY THE END OF THE 6 MILE TRECK, WE HAD BEEN ON THE MOUNTAIN FOR 10 HOURS! AND THE END I ASKED TRIPP, IF HE WAS DONE? AND HE SAID "NO TANNI!" AGAIN! I WAS LIKE TRIPP, I AM DONE! TAN IS DONE AND I NEED LIKE 30 ADULT BEVERAGES! AND HE JUST KEPT SAYING NO TANNI! HE JUST LOVED IT AND WOULD SIT THERE AND SAY" AHHA! TRYING TO SAY "YEEHAW"! WE ALL HAD AN AMAZING TIME! I WOULD HAVE TAKEN MORE PICS OF OUR TRIP, BUT I'M APPARENTLY A DUMB ASS AND THOUGHT MY CAMERA WAS BROKE, WELL IT WASN'T I HAD PUT THE BATTERIES IN MY CAMERA THE WRONG WAY! WAY TO GO RIGHTY! JEEZ. BUT IT WAS SUCH A BLAST I AM SO GRATEFUL FOR SUCH A WONDERFUL FAMILY! I COULDN'T HAVE ASKED FOR BETTER SIBLINGS MYSELF! SO HERE ARE SOME PICS OF THE"HELLS REVENGE" TRECK WE WENT ON. ENJOY! I'LL POST SOME MORE OF WHEN WE HIKED UP TO DELICATE ARCH! THIS TRIP WAS AMAZING! FOR YOU THAT COULDN'T MAKE, LIKE I SAID YOU MISSED OUT! THIS WAS SUCH A BLAST AND NOW I THINK I HAVE FOUND A NEW HOBBY! LOL.... BETTER QUIT BEING A CHICKEN SHIT..... MAYBE......LOL

*pippi's pasta pavillion*

so today while i was at work i got a phone call from arian. she wanted to know if i could come up to grandpa kerby's for dinner and a sleep over tonight. I said yes but i still have to work in the morning but that's fine. so i leave work early so i can head up there and hit traffic, on the way up and i call arian and tell her i'm going to be alittle bit late. She says that is fine just call me when you get here. don't come in the house. so i do as i'm told. I call her the second i get to grandpa's house and she says ok hold on peggy is going to come answer the door. So i'm waiting and my dad comes walking around the corner of the house. And he tells me that he has had to wait outside until i arrived at the house. which i'm sure was a long time! but anyhow peggy opens the door and arian is waiting for us with MENUS to PIPPI'S PASTA PALVILLION"










HERE IS A SIGN WITH THE SPEACIALS. TODAY'S SPEACIAL'S WERE SPAGHETTI WITH MEAT SAUCE, CAESER SALAD, GARLIC BREAD, AND CHOCOLATE MOUSSE WITH SPRINKLES. HERE IS A PIC OF ALL THE YUMMY FOOD THAT CHEF PIPPI AND HER ASSISTANT PIGGELETTO MADE FOR US. THIS WAS THE BEST DINNER I HAVE EVER HAD! WAY BETTER THEN THE OLD SPAGHETTI FACTORY AND THE CHOCOLATE MOUSSE WAS 100 TIMES BETTER THEN BRICK OVEN! THE CAESER SALAD WAS JUST A MOUTHFUL OF DELICIOUSNESS! CHEF PIPPI AND HER ASSISTANT PIGGELETTO DID SUCH AN AMAZING JOB! WE EVEN HAD A CHOICE FOR "DRINKS SPARKIING WINE" OR CRANBERRY JUICE. SO YUMMY I RECOMMEND THIS WONDERFUL RESTAURANT TO ALL OF YOU! VERY DELICIOUS.

*my crazy week*

Ok..well it first started off with this guy I recently became friends with. He called me after not speaking to him for about 2 weeks and just basically wanted to say hi. Well after he did that I spoke to my friend and she told me all of this stuff that happened one friday night. I was like what!? Are you kidding me! Well supposedly my guy friend had been over to her house with this chic we went to highschool with. Well she is married and her hubby had been out of town for the week and she and my guy friend had been hanging out the whole week.... That's not too bad. But my friend told me when he and this chic showed up to her house they looked like they did something they shouldn't. So I'm all what a piece of shit! Are you kidding me? Why the hell would he do that if his wife cheated on him? Well I asked him and he denied it of course, so that night I went to the bar with my friends and this guy I had been playin pool with asked me awhile later and said tania are you doing better? Because no one should ever have a hold of anyone like they do of you. Right when he said that I seriously had an "ah ha" moment sort of! I was all your so right! I don't even know you and these 3 dumb ass people have caused so much drama in my life that I was so upset at the bar everyone could tell and I shouldn't have gone. So I want to say thank you to guy at the bar that said that to me! The next day my mom had surgery. She was going to have her stomach removed, but ended up only having to have the opening to her stomach widened. Which is a less invasive surgery then the other they were going to do. I have been so worried about her for 6 weeks and I am so grateful that she is ok, and that the surgery went well. She is still in the hospital until Monday. But she is doing well. I just love her to pieces! And on another note, Troye and arian are here! They have been here for about 2 weeks now. I just adore those 2 and love them to pieces! Arian is now 5'4 she is 4 inches taller then me! And she's 12! And just the most beautiful 12 year old I've ever met! Just wanted to catch ya'll up on my crazy week!

*wow*

So I'm going to share with you all about my friend. I've known this person for just a little bit. Well in the short time I've gotten to know this person, I've come to adore, appreciate everything this person has to offer. Now this person is going through some shitty stuff right now and I feel bad! But some events have happened in recent weeks to lead me to believe that this person is having a nervous breakdown. Probably a lot worse then I think. All I can say is keep your chin up, know that so many people care about you and are behind you 100%!!!!!! No matter what! I've known you just a short time and I know the person you are, and the person you want to be. You inspire me in so many ways I can't even say! So as you said to me, no matter what happens we'll always be friends. Don't ever forget that! I make friends that last a lifetime, so your stuck with me no matter what!

*STAIND CONCERT*

I WENT TO SEE STAIND IN WENDOVER, THIS PAST SATURDAY. CAN I SAY IT WAS SO MUCH FUN!!!!!!! I LIKED THEM BEFORE. BUT MAN, ONCE YOU SEE SOMEONE LIVE, IT CHANGES EVERYTHING YOU THOUGHT ABOUT THEM BEFORE! THEY WERE AMAZING! I WENT WITH ONE OF MY BEST FRIENDS NECIA. WE HAVE BEEN FRIENDS SINCE HIGHSCHOOL! AND SHE JUST IS SO MUCH FUN TO HANG OUT WITH! WE GOT TO THE CONCERT HALL ABOUT AN HOUR EARLY AND WAS JUST HANGING OUT, DECIDED TO GO IN AND GET A BEER, AND ARE SITTIN IN OUR SEATS, OH MY HECK AND THERE ARE THESE 2 GUYS SITTIN IN THE SAME ROW AS US JUST LIKE 10 SEATS AWAY, AND ONE OF THEM SAYS HI, TO US, SO I GO "HEY! AND THROW UP A PEACE SIGN, i GUESS THEY THOUGHT THAT MEANT TO COME AND TALK TO US... WELL I WAS GETTING ANNOYED WITH THEM AND WENT TO GET ANOTHER BEER, WELL NECIA HAD TO SMOKE, SO WE GO OUTSIDE, AND THIS OLDER GUY WALKS UP TO US AND ASKS US IF WE HAPPEN TO HAVE ANOTHER TICKET? AND I SAY NO, BUT MY BROTHER IN LAW WAS SUPPOSED TO COME OUT HERE, BUT HE ISN'T NOW, SO MAYBE I CAN GET HIM TO SELL HIS TICKET. WELL NO SUCH LUCK! WELL THE GUY IS REALLY APPREACIATIVE OF ME TRYING TO FIND HIM A TICKET, AND CONTINUES TO TALK TO US, WELL WE GO BACK IN AND ENJOY THE SHOW, AND WE ARE WAITING TO BUY A T SHIRT, AND THE SAME OLDER GUY WAS BEHIND US! HE'S ALL I GOT TO SEE THE SHOW! FOR 50 BUCKS! AND WE SAY THAT IS SO AWESOME! WE ARE GLAD YOU GOT TO SEE THE SHOW! WELL HE ASKS US WHAT WE ARE DOING, AND I SAY, WE ARE GOING TO EAT SOMETHING, THEN GO BACK TO THE PEPPERMILL, AND HE SAID OK WELL LETS GO TO THE PEPPERMILL AND I WILL BUY YOU LADIES BOTH A BEER, FOR TRYING TO GET ME A TICKET! SO I'M OF COURSE DOWN WITH THIS, I REALLY WISH I COULD REMEMBER THIS GUYS NAME, BECAUSE HE LOOKED JUST LIKE MY HUSBAND GARY ALLAN, OOOH HE WAS SO CUTE! FOR BEING AN OLDER GUY! I THINK HE REALLY LIKED ME, BUT HE WAS WAY TOO OLD FOR ME! LOL I WANTED TO GET HIS NUMBER SO I COULD HOOK MY FRIENDS MOM UP WITH HIM, BECAUSE YOU KNOW HOW YOU CAN JUST TELL WHEN SOMEONE IS A GOOD PERSON? WELL THIS GUY WAS! THERE WAS JUST SOMETHING ABOUT HIM, THAT I WAS LIKE WOW... WHAT A GREAT GUY! AND THE WHOLE TIME WE WERE IN WENDOVER, WE WOULD SEE HIM EVERYWHERE! IT WAS SO FUNNY! WHEN WE GOT READY TO LEAVE WE WENT AND GOT GAS, AND OF COURSE OUR DUDE WAS AT THE GAS STATION! THEN WE WENT TO SMITHS, AND SOMEHOW HE WAS THERE TOO! AS WE'RE WALKIN OUT OF SMITHS, HE PULLS UP ON HIS HARELY, AND IS LIKE HEY! I SAID HI! HOWS IT GOING? AND HE SAID GOOD, JUST ON MY WAY BACK TO ELKO! SO I SAID WE'RE ON OUR WAY HOME TOO! DRIVE SAFE! MAN I WISH I WOULD'VE GOTTEN HIS NUMBER FOR MY FRIENDS MOM!!!!!!! OH WELL... THE CONCERT WAS A LOT OF FUN. HERE ARE SOME PICS,! ENJOY!

*GRATEFUL*

I got the saddest phone call from my best friend tonight. She was just sobbing, and sobbing because she is depressed. I had no idea. I'm so glad that she called me and told me. She just broke up with her boyfriend. Had to tell her other best friend they can't be friends anymore, and was just having such a terrible day! Then she goes on to tell me she's all alone, because she has no one, her best friend is in Provo, and she does everything for everyone and everyone just screws her over in the end. I told her ya know, that's how it is with me. No matter who you date, who your friends with someone will screw you over because we being the amazing people we are tend to care more then we should about people and always end up getting hurt. Its shitty but really what can you do? Its not in our personalities to screw people over, lie cheat and do whatever to be a horrible person. Its just not us. I said friend, don't let these people bring you down! Its their loss they screw you over and aren't in their lives anymore. Its part of being a genuinely nice caring person. Some people take advantage and some appreciate it. Just know that I miss you and you are my dearest friend, and I'm so lucky that I got over "hating" you years ago! And soon we'll go dancing or just chill!

1 YEAR*

And have I really done anything with my blog except bitch about lame guys that I seem to attract? Not really!!???? Well this next year I hope to find happiness with an amazing guy that hopefully I will meet....... Actually scratch the hopefully! I WILL find much happiness with an amazing guy... This year. I'm thinking positive this year, more so then last year. And so far it has brought good things! I have a couple of fun exciting things planned for the summer! 1 takes place in June, white water rafting in MOAB with the family! I mean the GIESSING/KERBY clan. 2 of the best concerts ever! Kenny chesney on july 23rd, and the one and only my love GEORGE STRAIT! I'm taking tycee to see kenny chesney. She will just love it I know! And just possibly a few trips to st. George.... Perhaps? So yes I'm excited for this summer! And the next year of blogging! Not as much bitching I promise! Lol!

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ANNOYED*

So I'm watching this show called "INTERVENTION" and usually I love this show. But tonight it sets me on fire. A girl named Brittany is addicted to this prescription drug that's similar to herion, I forget the name. BUT apparently she's been addicted to it since she was a teenager, and that is really sad, but it really sets me of fire because her mother had a daughter and when she was 5 got kidnapped and murdered. SAD I know. Well the mom gets prego with Brittany and I guess puts all this pressur on Brittany to be like the daughter that got kidnapped. Well apparently the mom will take Brittany to the drug dealers house and even pay for the drugs her daughter is taking! I could NOT believe that when I heard that! What kind of dumb ass parent are you to enable your Childs drug habit by taking them personally, to buy the drugs!!!???? I just about shit my pants. Also her boyfriend of 5 years does drugs with her, and enables her as well! WTF!!!!!! Its so sad to me that this has happened to this poor girl, and I don't even know who the hell she is. I was just on fire while watching this! So I thought I'd share. Why would any parent enable their kids to do drugs!!?? I realize the loss of the moms other daughter was hard, and she's trying to make up for it. But my hell. Its just sad. Really sad.

terrible SAD day!!!!

So today was a pretty good day. I went to lunch with my step sister and niece Maren to osaka and enjoyed some YUMMY sushi! It was a lot of fun getting together with those 2! Well I get back to work, and my assistant manager Christina tells me she needs to talk to me. So we go in the backroom and I say ok what's up? And she's all let's go outside. So I say ok.... She then tells me she is giving me her 2 weeks because her boyfriend is in Alaska, working and she wants to be there with him. I sort of freak out, one because she has been my friend for 5 years. And for 2 I think its so ridiculous she is packing up and moving out there. For 1 her boyfriend sits there and tells her he doesn't want to marry her, because he is hung up on some girl in Canada.... Well to me that would be a clue to get out of this relationship... Well she thinks it feels so "right" and I'm sure it does. I told her she really needed to fast and pray about this maybe even get a blessing because this is a huge deal! I did apologize to her for freakin out and I do only have her best interest at heart. I hope it works out for her in the long run. I really do. Me being me, I just wouldn't run off to Alaska with some guy that won't even marry me!(if I wanted to get married that is) Christina is such an amazing person I just hate to see her get screwed over by another douche bag! But yeah so just a sad day that she is leaving our job and me behind! Now who am I gonna go dancing with!!!???? Lol just teasing!

this pic reminds of springtime and i am so happy that is has finally arrived! life is GREAT right now! just thought you all should know!!!!!!!

non- existence love life.

Ok ok ok ok I know I have posted a lot about the losers I have dated. Well it gets worse. This boy I have just adored for more them 5 years of course turned out to be the douche bag of all douche bags! Seriously!!!! With all the moving I have done, from utah to Oklahoma, back to utah to northern utah back down to central utah I guess would be where I'm at now. We have stayed in touch thanks to my EX brother in law dave. He and this boy are quite good friends. And everytime they'd want to hang out I'd drive 2 hours to hang out with this boy because I was so in to this boy. I'd go shooting, bowling whatever just to hang out with him. Well in the past 6 maybe 10 months he has ditched me about 5 times. I always have him the excuse, " oh he has his horses to tend to, or his work is so busy and blah, blah, blah" well I called him up about 2 weeks ago, and said hey what are you doing this weekend? And he's all nothing except I gotta shoe my horses Saturday morning and finish up putting these cabinets in this house, so I said ok, well do you want to come out with my friends and I Saturday night? And this boy is all sure! I will "try" and make it if I can't I will call you and let you know. Well come Saturday a little birdie by the name of dave tells me this boy is in cedar city with another girl! I literally fly off tha handle text him and say what the hell man? You couldn't even text or call me and say you have other plans or something came up? You are such a piece of shit, and for me to stand there and let you do this to me 5 freakin times in a row? What the hell man? All I ever wanted was honesty, that's all I ever want in anyone whether they are just a friend or not. I atleast deserve that. Oh man, did I lay into him so bad, he finally told me I needed to "get over myself" and he was already hanging out with the "hottest" girl in utah"..which I called him out on that and said bull shit, I bet your just hanging out with your ugly neighbor girl, and you can kiss my ass goodbye. I have nothing to get over, and for you to treat someone that badly. Buddy you need to get over your hick piece of shit self. Now I know that may have been a little extreme but my hell seriously you should've told me you had plans when I called you plenty of time in advance to hang out. I mean come on people I am 26 years old. I'm sick of this bull shit, lying and drama! That goes with dating. Its ridiculous, how many posts have I posted about douche bags lying to me!!!! I have honestly had enough. If your gonna lie to me about you being married having a girlfriend, or having other plans when I make plans with you, BOY you best keep on walking, because this girl is done, and as kellie pickler would say" I'll be there in the back of your mind from the day we met, to when you were making me cry, and its just to bad you've already had the best days the best days of your life!!!!!!!!o

doofus!

I have no idea if I spelled that word right but... Oh well. So the story today, is I went to target with Tycee yesterday to buy a lamp and some garbages and cleaning supplies for my new apartment. Well the night before I'm putting my clothes away and realize at 11 at night I don't have a shower curtain! So I'm very annoyed go to bed, and work the next day run over to my mom's house for a second and Tycee was over there. So I ask her to go to target with me and she goes, "tan I just got back from there with grandma! And I was like I'll be really quick! I just gotta but a lamp and a few things. So she went with me. And we come back to my moms and I say well I'm going home I can't wait to put my shower curtain up! So Tycee says" fine tan, go have fun putting your shower curtain up! Ya doofus! I just laughed at her! And then thought....oh no! I've ACtually turned into my mom and my sisters being excited to hang up a shower curtain, or go clean!!!!!!!!! What has this world come too!!!!!!!! Ha ha ha just kidding. I just laughed at Tycee. She always says the funniest things and puts a smile on my face.

i'm leaving on a jet plane*

THIS IS WHAT I HAVE TO LOOK FORWARD TO FOR THE NEXT WEEK COME SATURDAY!!!!!! I CAN'T EVEN WAIT! I'M GOING TO CANCUN WITH MY MOM AND AAGE, TIA AND TERRY, AND TRIPP, AND TERRY'S PARENTS WENDALL AND KAREN. IT SHOULD BE SO MUCH FUN! I AM JUST LOOKING FORWARD TO SITTING ON THE BEACH AND LEAVING ALL MY PROBLEMS, CRAZY LIFE AND EVERYTHING LIKE THAT AT HOME, AND CHILLING AT THE BEACH FOR A WEEK! I WILL MOST DEF TAKE TONS OF PICS SO YOU ALL CAN SEE WHAT FUN WE'RE HAVING... HOPEFULLY IT DOESN'T SNOW WHILE WE ARE GONE, SO YOU ALL CAN ENJOY SOME KINDA SPRING WEATHER! SO FOR THE NEXT WEEK PEACE OUT! HA HA HA!

2 of my favorite people!!!!!!!!!!

i thought this was so cute! i took this pic tonight of tripp and tycee eating popcorn and watching a movie! man i just love these2 little kids so much!!!!!!! and Tripp! he's so funny now! He repeats every word and action you do! i walked down to tia's tonight to get tripp so i could babysit him and tycee while she went to a baby shower. well i'm giving tripp a piggy back ride back to my mom's and i'm talking to him asking him to say" tanni, and mama, tycee, and papa" and he says all of those words clear as can be! i love having him say my name, because he actually says tanni, and not "nanni" tycee and tripp just crack me up so i thought i'd share this cute pic of them!

* this may be uncalled for... but who cares.

Ok so long story short. One of my friends is trying to hook up with my married friends... Not cool right? Well my married friends ask me to speak to..let's call him DB....cuz he's a douche. Anyways they ask me to speak with DB and say please just knock it off. Its not cool its one reason to try and hook up with someone that's single and quite another when they are married. I was nice, very professional. About the whole thing cuz DB is supposed to be my friend. Well the shit hits the fan and db thinks I "created" all this dramb just because. I didn't I hate drama. More then anything. I do not create it for any reason. This said, he blames me and doesn't own up to him being a complete douche bag, we end up fighting me saying stuff like I'm only friends with him cuz he pays for everything when we go out, and that's all he's good for. He ends up calling me some really nasty names. We are no longer friends as of about 1130 this morning. I don't understand how he can blame this on me since I was bringing it to his attention, and I told him flat out I think he's awesome this no way effects our friendship, I still want to chill, and whatever. If he would own up and not blame me for his stupid mistakes everything would be fine. The whole situation sucks because we ended on very very bad terms. Like we no longer have each othes phone #'s he deleted and blocked me off of myspace and facebook I took him off of all my messenger services. We are no longer friends. And its shitty cuz he was pretty awesome. But the names he called me and the words he yelled at me hurt the worst because I've never been called them before. I'm just like how can a friend turn around and call me a cunt, a 2 faced bitch, and a liar, when he was the DB that was trying to get with my married friends! Now maybe I should've stayed out of it, but my other friend came to me and asked me to talk to db. How is that fair that he's treating me like this and yeah I said hateful stuff. But not that hateful. And its just a shitty situation. He's a complete ass, I know and can I guess peace out and "take it easy" in his words cuz he's a douche. But this has had me upset all day. I was only looking out for him. And obviously he doesn't care. That's all I can come up with. Anyone that knows me knows I'm so kind and generous, but at the sametime don't mess with me! I really had to just vent about this douche bag who is no longer apart of my life.............

*SAD DAY*

Pk so I'm sure I've all told you, that I'm moving to a town closer to my family and I'm happy to do that. I have a need to be close to the ones I love, its hard to explain. But its as if its a drug for me. Because I care so deeply for everyone in my family, but at the sametime I'm so so so so so so sad to leave the life I have up here in O town. All my single friends. My bff Karissa. It just makes me so sad. And I'm not sure how I'll deal with it. I'm sure most of you think, my god tania they are just friends.... But that's not it. When I make friends with someone I'm friends with them for life. Its feels like a little bit of my heart is breaking. Even though I know with out a doubt this is the right thing for me to do. It just saddens me a little bit. I guess more then a little bit since I'm posting about this. But I'm pretty positive that GOOD THINGS are instore for me and this wonderful move. I will get to see 3 of my favorite nieces and nephew on a daily basisis. Which now its like and every other weekend if that. And I can help my mom and dad out. And that's what's important right? Yes! Of course. See my pops is having surgery tomorrow to have a stint put in his heart. Which stresses me out like no other. And I know he'll be fine. But hello* he is my dad. The best dad I could ever ask for, and it makes me sad he isn't feeling that great. So I know this move is good so I can help him out when he needs it, which seems lately more often. Man. Seeing your parents get old really sucks. More when your single and you seem to think...crap...I better marry the first douche bag I see... Ha ha just teasing. Jus so I'm not alone. But pretty much this is a pity on tania post, and please bless my pops in your prayers tonight. Dad if you read this I love you and am so grateful you are apart of my life every single day I thank god for you and mom! I love you! And will talk to you after your surgery!

*HOT MAINTENANCE GUY*

Yesterday at my work us girls were finishing up the shipment. Well last week my DM called and said the guys that change all our lights are in town so look out for them and make sure they do their job. Well yesterday I get back from lunch and start working on the shipment, and we all decide to take a 5 min break, we go to the back and then somone comes in my store. We all yell " HELLO" and they are like hi! We're here to check your lights and clean the vents. So I didn't see these guys cuz I'm so short the shelves in my store block my view until I walk to the front of the store. ANYWAYS. I get up to the front of the store and look at these guys and I'm All oh my! The one with the the sunglasses looks so HOT! So I introduce myself by saying "hello I'm the store manager tania. Let me know if ya'll need anything? And the girls and I continue to work and the guys are talkin to us saying they went snow boarding yesterday and could barely drive up to powder mountain because they don't have 4 wheel drive. And that they were driving 5 mph. He said they had a lot of fun. And I was all yeah snow boarding is a lot of fun. But next time your in town you should go snowmobiling. Now that's a hell of a good time! Ha ha. So their just talking and bull shittin with us and I had to run to the back room. Well I come back up and they are getting ready to leave. Like getting in their car to leave! So I wave bye to them, and hurry and call my good friend chelsi' and tell her when they get to her store to ask the hot one for his number! Well by the time the hot boys get to her store im off work and I forget I asked her to get the one guys number. So I'm getting ready to go see my friend that just had a baby. And chelsi texts me and is like his name is Phillip and here is his #! So I got it and was like shut the shit up you really got it! That's awesome! How did you get it? And she's all one of my girls did it. They we're just asking about him and said the girls at the previous store need his number. And he's all well why? Is there something wrong? And the other girl at chelsi's store is like no actually the manager thinks your so hot! That's why she wants your number! Ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha!!!! When I heard that I was like oh man ....you guys are awesome! Thank you so much when I come up next week for inventory I'm bringing ya'll a surprise for doing that for me! I did Text Phillip, last night and he never replied..... Hopefully he will someday soon when he's not busy driving all over the united states changing light bulbs and doing maintenance for my work! Ha ha ha so that was the highlight for my week! I should've took a pic of him! But I didn't I'll just have to remember his good looks in my head! LOL!!!!!! I'd most def move to Florida for him! Ha ha ha just kidding. I told my friends we might be taking a road trip to Florida to track this Phillip guy down! Wish me luck!

* good things are instore*

Its almost 10 at night and I had to tivo the inauguration of Pres. Obama. It touched my heart I must say. I believe that with Pres. Obama the 44th Pres of the united states, good things will come. And its a chance for everyone to come together as one. I was reading a blog about someone who was at the inauguration, she flew in to D.C. Friday, road the train to union station, and it was so crowded with people that going up the escalator there was hundreds of people at the top. When your on An escalator, you can't just stop. She thought people would start to trample over people. But in the next moment everyone came together linked arms and helped each other out. Adults were looking out for children,so they didn't get trampled. military personal were directing traffic so people could get there safely. I think having Obama as our next Pres brings a new light to the world, to America. Atleast in my life he brings a sense of stability. I spoke to a friend of mine earlier today, and she felt the whole thing was a little racist. I myself do not think that. Its such a historic amazing event. Who ever thought we'd have a black president? I certainly did not. I was one of those people thinking we are not ready for a black president. But what changed my mind I was talking to tycee wondering what she thought about this whole thing. And she said its crazy, people shouldn't care what the president looks like or what color his skin is. I told her that is so true! And that maybe this will be the end of racisim. She of course didn't know what racisim was. So I explained to her its making fun or hating someone because they are different. And she replied well tan, everyone should know you should like people for who they are not what they look like! I had to laugh at this smart sweet amazing niece of mine! And the fact she had no clue what racisim was makes my heart smile! I just wanted to say all in all GOOD THINGS are certainly instore! And I can't wait to see them take effect.

*yAy*

YAY! I AM SO HAPPY THE STEELERS WON! I'M OFFICIALLY
VERY EXCITED FOR THE SUPER BOWL NOW! .....

OH HAPPY DAY! =)

I had a great conversation with my work friend Becca today, I started out telling her rascal flatts are coming to town because they are her FAVORITE! And she's going to come visit all of us girls at work, on friday and bring her adorable precious baby girl avery! I can't even wait to see them! It was good to chat with ya Becca via text message! ALSO!my friend aubree just found out she's pregnant! You all know her as the most amazing singer that sang at Talle's wedding. I'm very excited for her! So CONGRATULATIONS aubree!

complaining yet again.........

I know I have complained quite a bit about this but I'm gonna do it again! IT SUCKS BEING SINGLE! It really does! My friends Christina and karissa and myself all have the same view. We all think we're gonna be 50 by the time we find a guy worth our time or even long enough to go out on more then one date! I was talking to my friend amiee today and she will have been married a year in June. She's talking to me saying that she doesn't think I'm ready to get on the "married train" because its so hard. And I'm just thinking maybe that's true. But atleast I'd like to be on board the "boyfriend train"! Is that really too much to ask!????? I have a couple guys I'm talking to. But one of them lives far away and the other lives like an hour and a half from me. (and I think he likes my friend) so that doesn't put much hope in my life at the moment. And I gotta say I do have a lame new years resolution! To meet a great guy that I will keep around and to be a better person. I strongly believe that 2009 is the year for me to actually make the finding a good guy happen. Anyhow.... Tania is here to complain about the douche's that live in the state of Utah... Atleast in my neck of the woods! Ahh! The joys of Being single! Gotta love it! NOT!

new years and karissa's bday!

the first 2 pics are of karissa's bday at texas roadhouse! she barely turned 21 and we had a good time celebrating! this is emily and karissa our new years started off fun.. this pic is karissa's sister and brother in law myself and karissa. karissa and i enjoying our beer for some reason they had fake money on the tables.. i haven't figured out why yet this pic cracks me up! the guy standing next to me thought that he knew me. well i'm pretty sure he just wanted to hit on me. but whatev! the guy on the left next to karissa was nice! he was the guy at the door of the bar that checks id's.

so my new years ended at 11 pm! we were at the bar til about 10 and then i was all i want to go home! i'm not gonna be out with all the crazy's so i had them take me home and i went to bed! how lame is that! oh well! it was a good time! hope you all had a great new years !