terrible SAD day!!!!

So today was a pretty good day. I went to lunch with my step sister and niece Maren to osaka and enjoyed some YUMMY sushi! It was a lot of fun getting together with those 2! Well I get back to work, and my assistant manager Christina tells me she needs to talk to me. So we go in the backroom and I say ok what's up? And she's all let's go outside. So I say ok.... She then tells me she is giving me her 2 weeks because her boyfriend is in Alaska, working and she wants to be there with him. I sort of freak out, one because she has been my friend for 5 years. And for 2 I think its so ridiculous she is packing up and moving out there. For 1 her boyfriend sits there and tells her he doesn't want to marry her, because he is hung up on some girl in Canada.... Well to me that would be a clue to get out of this relationship... Well she thinks it feels so "right" and I'm sure it does. I told her she really needed to fast and pray about this maybe even get a blessing because this is a huge deal! I did apologize to her for freakin out and I do only have her best interest at heart. I hope it works out for her in the long run. I really do. Me being me, I just wouldn't run off to Alaska with some guy that won't even marry me!(if I wanted to get married that is) Christina is such an amazing person I just hate to see her get screwed over by another douche bag! But yeah so just a sad day that she is leaving our job and me behind! Now who am I gonna go dancing with!!!???? Lol just teasing!

this pic reminds of springtime and i am so happy that is has finally arrived! life is GREAT right now! just thought you all should know!!!!!!!

non- existence love life.

Ok ok ok ok I know I have posted a lot about the losers I have dated. Well it gets worse. This boy I have just adored for more them 5 years of course turned out to be the douche bag of all douche bags! Seriously!!!! With all the moving I have done, from utah to Oklahoma, back to utah to northern utah back down to central utah I guess would be where I'm at now. We have stayed in touch thanks to my EX brother in law dave. He and this boy are quite good friends. And everytime they'd want to hang out I'd drive 2 hours to hang out with this boy because I was so in to this boy. I'd go shooting, bowling whatever just to hang out with him. Well in the past 6 maybe 10 months he has ditched me about 5 times. I always have him the excuse, " oh he has his horses to tend to, or his work is so busy and blah, blah, blah" well I called him up about 2 weeks ago, and said hey what are you doing this weekend? And he's all nothing except I gotta shoe my horses Saturday morning and finish up putting these cabinets in this house, so I said ok, well do you want to come out with my friends and I Saturday night? And this boy is all sure! I will "try" and make it if I can't I will call you and let you know. Well come Saturday a little birdie by the name of dave tells me this boy is in cedar city with another girl! I literally fly off tha handle text him and say what the hell man? You couldn't even text or call me and say you have other plans or something came up? You are such a piece of shit, and for me to stand there and let you do this to me 5 freakin times in a row? What the hell man? All I ever wanted was honesty, that's all I ever want in anyone whether they are just a friend or not. I atleast deserve that. Oh man, did I lay into him so bad, he finally told me I needed to "get over myself" and he was already hanging out with the "hottest" girl in utah"..which I called him out on that and said bull shit, I bet your just hanging out with your ugly neighbor girl, and you can kiss my ass goodbye. I have nothing to get over, and for you to treat someone that badly. Buddy you need to get over your hick piece of shit self. Now I know that may have been a little extreme but my hell seriously you should've told me you had plans when I called you plenty of time in advance to hang out. I mean come on people I am 26 years old. I'm sick of this bull shit, lying and drama! That goes with dating. Its ridiculous, how many posts have I posted about douche bags lying to me!!!! I have honestly had enough. If your gonna lie to me about you being married having a girlfriend, or having other plans when I make plans with you, BOY you best keep on walking, because this girl is done, and as kellie pickler would say" I'll be there in the back of your mind from the day we met, to when you were making me cry, and its just to bad you've already had the best days the best days of your life!!!!!!!!o

doofus!

I have no idea if I spelled that word right but... Oh well. So the story today, is I went to target with Tycee yesterday to buy a lamp and some garbages and cleaning supplies for my new apartment. Well the night before I'm putting my clothes away and realize at 11 at night I don't have a shower curtain! So I'm very annoyed go to bed, and work the next day run over to my mom's house for a second and Tycee was over there. So I ask her to go to target with me and she goes, "tan I just got back from there with grandma! And I was like I'll be really quick! I just gotta but a lamp and a few things. So she went with me. And we come back to my moms and I say well I'm going home I can't wait to put my shower curtain up! So Tycee says" fine tan, go have fun putting your shower curtain up! Ya doofus! I just laughed at her! And then thought....oh no! I've ACtually turned into my mom and my sisters being excited to hang up a shower curtain, or go clean!!!!!!!!! What has this world come too!!!!!!!! Ha ha ha just kidding. I just laughed at Tycee. She always says the funniest things and puts a smile on my face.

i'm leaving on a jet plane*

THIS IS WHAT I HAVE TO LOOK FORWARD TO FOR THE NEXT WEEK COME SATURDAY!!!!!! I CAN'T EVEN WAIT! I'M GOING TO CANCUN WITH MY MOM AND AAGE, TIA AND TERRY, AND TRIPP, AND TERRY'S PARENTS WENDALL AND KAREN. IT SHOULD BE SO MUCH FUN! I AM JUST LOOKING FORWARD TO SITTING ON THE BEACH AND LEAVING ALL MY PROBLEMS, CRAZY LIFE AND EVERYTHING LIKE THAT AT HOME, AND CHILLING AT THE BEACH FOR A WEEK! I WILL MOST DEF TAKE TONS OF PICS SO YOU ALL CAN SEE WHAT FUN WE'RE HAVING... HOPEFULLY IT DOESN'T SNOW WHILE WE ARE GONE, SO YOU ALL CAN ENJOY SOME KINDA SPRING WEATHER! SO FOR THE NEXT WEEK PEACE OUT! HA HA HA!

2 of my favorite people!!!!!!!!!!

i thought this was so cute! i took this pic tonight of tripp and tycee eating popcorn and watching a movie! man i just love these2 little kids so much!!!!!!! and Tripp! he's so funny now! He repeats every word and action you do! i walked down to tia's tonight to get tripp so i could babysit him and tycee while she went to a baby shower. well i'm giving tripp a piggy back ride back to my mom's and i'm talking to him asking him to say" tanni, and mama, tycee, and papa" and he says all of those words clear as can be! i love having him say my name, because he actually says tanni, and not "nanni" tycee and tripp just crack me up so i thought i'd share this cute pic of them!

* this may be uncalled for... but who cares.

Ok so long story short. One of my friends is trying to hook up with my married friends... Not cool right? Well my married friends ask me to speak to..let's call him DB....cuz he's a douche. Anyways they ask me to speak with DB and say please just knock it off. Its not cool its one reason to try and hook up with someone that's single and quite another when they are married. I was nice, very professional. About the whole thing cuz DB is supposed to be my friend. Well the shit hits the fan and db thinks I "created" all this dramb just because. I didn't I hate drama. More then anything. I do not create it for any reason. This said, he blames me and doesn't own up to him being a complete douche bag, we end up fighting me saying stuff like I'm only friends with him cuz he pays for everything when we go out, and that's all he's good for. He ends up calling me some really nasty names. We are no longer friends as of about 1130 this morning. I don't understand how he can blame this on me since I was bringing it to his attention, and I told him flat out I think he's awesome this no way effects our friendship, I still want to chill, and whatever. If he would own up and not blame me for his stupid mistakes everything would be fine. The whole situation sucks because we ended on very very bad terms. Like we no longer have each othes phone #'s he deleted and blocked me off of myspace and facebook I took him off of all my messenger services. We are no longer friends. And its shitty cuz he was pretty awesome. But the names he called me and the words he yelled at me hurt the worst because I've never been called them before. I'm just like how can a friend turn around and call me a cunt, a 2 faced bitch, and a liar, when he was the DB that was trying to get with my married friends! Now maybe I should've stayed out of it, but my other friend came to me and asked me to talk to db. How is that fair that he's treating me like this and yeah I said hateful stuff. But not that hateful. And its just a shitty situation. He's a complete ass, I know and can I guess peace out and "take it easy" in his words cuz he's a douche. But this has had me upset all day. I was only looking out for him. And obviously he doesn't care. That's all I can come up with. Anyone that knows me knows I'm so kind and generous, but at the sametime don't mess with me! I really had to just vent about this douche bag who is no longer apart of my life.............